Monday, January 25, 2010
Been a long time since I touched this. Come to think of it, when did I ever blog so often haha!
Oh well, just felt like getting this off my chest since I don't have anyone to tell this to since the people I'm close to is just so busy.
And people don't read my blog so it should be quite ok to just write everything over here. sigh.
Saturday and Sunday , talked to me differently for the first time in such a long time. It's always like this. First 3 days so lively. And after that, it just dies down.. After Saturday and Sunday, I thought finally, it would be different. Finally you would be able to keep this up and I was hoping so much that it won't change again.. But Monday, it just died down again..
Sigh. Just hurts so much. Just when I thought everything would be smooth. Sometimes I even wonder if I'm being played around.. Have your fun and just toss me away? I don't know.. All these insecurities.
No wonder I cried after that dream. Right after the call, went to sleep. Dreamt of so many wonderful things all pointing to 1 person. It felt so damn real. The things it said , the things it did to us. Just felt so real. As soon as I woke up, I cried , thinking this will never be real.... Too good to be true. Should I never had that dream? Sigh.
There's a group in facebook I saw. Smiling on the outside but crying so hard inside you.
The group is definitely for me.
---7:46 PM---
